Well.. after striving and pushing for most of my life, my body finally had enough. The last two years of working in the film industry pushed my adrenals past their reserves. Lack of sleep, long hours and extended periods of stress have had their impact on my body.
Yoga and meditation helped to keep me afloat, but after a certain amount of time the weight of stress was too much and my body needed to get the message to my mind, to stop what was killing me.
I didn’t want to change my life, I didn’t want to change my way of living. But the body knows otherwise. Humans are not meant to be operating at such a high level of intensity for a long duration of time. The flight and fight response is meant to only last minutes, not days, or weeks, or in many peoples cases, years.
So here I am now, in a sense of awe.. That my body is forcing me into hibernation.
It doesn’t care that my mind doesn’t want to stop, it doesn’t care that I had plans. It only cares about survival and its health. It wants me to live in balance and its forcing me to do so.
I don’t know how the future will be, but what I do know is that I will change. I will change in how I use my energy. I will change in how I work and I will change in the person I become. This has long term consequences and will take 1-2 years to recover.
I knew throughout the whole experience that this was happening, but I kept going forward chasing after money, consciously running myself into the ground.
Our society as a whole, is running towards this illness. Our gas tanks operate on coffee and sugar. Every morning it shocks me how many people are in line at coffee shops, and how many coffee shops are on each block. It is the drug of the modern age and most of us are sleep deprived.
When we are stressed we eat poorly, make bad decisions and smile less. I see these hurried people, miserable faces all over the place. Their bodies screaming “listen to me!!” But they don’t, just like I didn’t and then illness sets in to wake them up.
Wake up before you have no choice. I had my warning. Im changing my life. Because the other option isn’t a choice.
If you have these symptoms you are probably moving towards Adrenal or Chronic Fatigue, talk to a nutritionist/ naturopath sooner rather than later.
- Still very tired when you get up in the morning, even if y0u had 8-10 hours of sleep
- groggy and tired at 3-4pm
- easily overwhelmed and stressed
- digestion is off
- as a woman your cycle could be off
- low mood
- irritable, easily angered
- have no reserves, once you are tired there is nothing left.
- wired, but tired
- foggy, memory problems
- need sugar or caffeine to keep going
- candida overgrowth